Another week in the mission field,
This has been an interesting week. It started off that last p-day
was not too great on my quest for more charity, and I decided I needed to try a
lot harder. He hadn't cleaned all day and his companion, Elder Isla, and I had.
We argued for a little bit, and I just kind of lost it on him for not even
cleaning up after himself and that I was sick of telling him to clean up his
own messes and then doing it myself. We yelled for a little and got nowhere,
and I was mad. Later that night, I pulled him off to the side and apologized
and said I needed to do better and not get so worked up about things. I was
hoping he would have the same type of attitude, but he just said, “Yeah, as a
district leader I have a lot of responsibilities that you don't know about, and
I don't have time to clean up after myself, because I am so busy worrying about
others.” He talked for about fifteen minutes about how he has a lot more on his
plate than I do, and I think that was his way of apologizing. I just said, “Ok,
you're right,” and decided I would just lead by example and ignore the fact
that he won't really help clean up. The frustrating thing is that if he were so
busy with his "district duties" he wouldn't spend so much time during
the day sitting on the couch or out to eat with other missionaries. But I think
in his mind he is doing well. Even if he isn't, oh well, I'm just going to
worry about myself.
So, that night I decided I needed to start doing better. We
read a talk about purifying and getting rid of things that don't seem like a big
deal, but you need to do it to feel the Spirit strongly. We made a list of
things as an apartment. Among them were singing non-missionary songs, quoting
movies, not starting studies on time, leaving out dishes (that was my input),
and a few other things. For the punishments for breaking our rules, I had a
really good idea that you had to clean something if you broke a rule. That only
lasted the first day before our district leader said it was dumb, and he didn't
want to clean stuff anymore, but at least I tried ha-ha.
The one thing Elder Isla and I started to do together was
not going to the gym. We both felt the same after reading the talk. Then we
prayed about it and decided we won't go to the gym anymore. I know it sounds
dumb, but it was a really hard decision, because I really like going to the
gym. It's how I relieve stress, but I know I'll feel the Spirit better without
that type of influence every morning. The other missionaries ask why we don't
go anymore, and we don't really say, but at the same time, our zone leaders
decided to stop going, too so that made me feel more confident about it. I have
just been doing workouts at home in the morning instead. I really have no
reason to complain, because that's what people in other missions do, so that'll
be ok. Unfortunately, this means Elder Isla doesn't exercise anymore, but it
was his decision, too. I can't force him
to exercise in the morning.
Grandma sent me some 3-2-1-cake mix that is making staying
healthy difficult. I love it. I try to avoid cake everyday at lunch but it's
hard. ha-ha, thanks grandma! (Don't stop sending them!) Our district leader started ‘unifying our district’
this week, and he says we need to have more district lunches. I am really the
only one who doesn't want to do it, because I don't want to waste money. There
is this place they like to go; it's outside our zone, and the hamburgers are
like seven dollars (but you get free fries). They go occasionally, and I just
don't eat lunch that day. It kind of bugs me, because they don't have enough
money, so they email their parents and say the mission doesn't give them enough,
so their parents send more money. I have a pretty interesting district.
One thing I have grown to love here is Tampico. I have had
more of it since I have been here than my whole life combined. EVERY Hispanic
house has some. It's kind of funny. Oh, about the gym, I was battling at one
point whether or not it was actually the Spirit and not just in my head that I
couldn't go. Then Dad's ‘righteous hunch talk’ popped into my head, and I
realized it was inviting me to do this for a better cause, so who cares if it
was a righteous hunch or the Spirit? I should follow it regardless. After
deciding that, I felt a lot better about it.